Friday, January 2, 2015

TODAY!

January 2, 2015


I have been scared until just a few minutes ago. Scared of the future. Scared of the things I hear could happen this year. Scared of the overwhelming task of keeping the finances for the house, of making decisions that will affect us for a very long time. All I want to do is follow the Lord and doing His will—but the more I try not to worry, the more I continue to play things in my mind that overwhelm my heart.

I thank you, Abba, that you looked at my heart and showed me what is wrong. I am not practicing my own preaching! I tell every one else to walk by faith—and here I am doing the opposite, worrying! Thank you for the scripture you gave me this morning. I know it comes from you because I was not looking for it. And you showed it to me twice, which is a sign for me to pay attention:

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything
by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving,
let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God,
which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds
through Christ Jesus.”—Phil. 4:6-7

The world is turning up side down, falling into an endless labyrinth of chaos, my personal problems are overwhelming and the need to help others is even more overwhelming. Things seem to be going out of control.

Thank you Lord that you showed me my anxious heart and my tendency to worry with things that do not belong to me. I need to learn to take things day by day. Springs in the Valley, January 3 teaches me in regards to the same scripture:

“There are two golden days in the week…two carefree days, kept sacredly free from fear and apprehension.”

“Yesterday” – “with its cares and frets, all its pains and aches, all its faults, mistakes and blunders, has passed forever beyond my recall. I cannot undo an act that I wrought; nor unsay a word that I said. All that it holds of my life, of wrong, regret and sorrow, is in the hands of the Mighty Love that can bring honey out of the rock and sweetest waters out of the bitterest desert. Save for the beautiful memories—sweet and tender—that linger like the perfume of roses in the heart of that day that is gone, I have nothing to do with Yesterday. It was mine! It is God’s!”

How many times in my life do I have to remember that I cannot change Yesterday? I like that it says, “is in the hands of the Mighty Love…” The Mighty Love who can turn my lemons into lemonade! 

But it is not Yesterday that occupies my heart and my mind, it is its sister Tomorrow that grabs my heart like a mighty grisly bear. It wraps me around with its overwhelming strong arms and holds me tight, too tight for me to breath, too big to look ahead, too awesome to focus on today…all I see is the darkness of its embrace all around me. But…praise the Lord Who never leaves me too long in my own thoughts and leads me out of my mind... Of Tomorrow He shows me through this devotional:

“Tomorrow, with all its possible adversities, its burdens, its perils, its large promise and poor performance, its failures and mistakes, is as far beyond my mastery as its dead sister, Yesterday. It is a day of God’s. Its sun will rise in roseate splendor, or behind a mask of weeping clouds—but it will rise.

Until then, the same Love and Patience that held Yesterday holds Tomorrow. Save for the star of hope that gleams forever on the brow of Tomorrow, shining with tender promise into the heart of Today, I have no possession in the unborn day of grace. All else is in the safe keeping of the Infinite Love that is higher than the stars, wider than the skies, deeper than the seas. Tomorrow is God’s day! It will be mine!”

It doesn’t make sense to worry about Tomorrow. It is God’s Day and no one else’s. I cannot see it. I cannot grab it. I cannot determine its outcome. It will be here and, like the author says, it will be mine. So what is the point? Here’s what the author says:

“There is left for myself, then, but one day in the week—Today…

It isn’t the experience of Today that drives men mad. It is the remorse for something that happened Yesterday, the dread of what Tomorrow may disclose.

These are God’s days! Leave them with Him!”

Yesterday I made mistakes, I made wrong choices driven by emotions, but I know that the Lord is able to turn all my mistakes into learning lessons and He is able to work all things together for good. Today I mourn in my heart the bad choices I made, but a light flickers in front of me, it is the light of the hope that Tomorrow brings!

Praise the Lord that He is in charge of my Yesterdays and that He holds my Tomorrows.

Today I start this blog. It is a good day. The name I chose for this blog, Perhaps Today! it is because of the hope that I awake to each morning, the hope that Perhaps Today the Lord will call me home and I will behold His glory. Whether by death or by rapture my Today will come. Praise God!

Happy New Year! May the Lord fill your Todays!

Thank you for reading this, I appreciate your comments.

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